“The most difficult phase of life is not when no one understands you; It is when you don’t understand yourself” – unknown

Part II (Ilchi Lee’s Mediation experience on Moak Mt)

Toward the end of the first week without sleep, I developed a severe headache of a magnitude I had never experienced. The pain in my eye sockets and in my ears was so severe that I culd not see or hear. As time went on, my brain seemed to shrivel and begin to deteriorate. My head seemed always on the verge of exploding. After about two weeks, I knew that I would soon die. I felt a fleeting temptation to sleep, drink, and at something in order to prolong my life a bit. I would have succumbed to temptation had I not survived the ordeal of freezing in the snow covered field.

The pain was so severe, that I knew I was beyond saving at this point. I tried to stand on my head and scream with all my might in order to relieve this pain. Eventually, I gave up. Once again, I decided to fully offer myelf to the heavens above.  With a loud boom,as this thought crossed my mind, I felt the world open up before me. A soothing and refreshing feeling of coor warmth enveloped me. I was beyond my body, free of pain with full clarity.

With an incredible expansion of feeling, I heard a voice cry out from deep within me, “Who am I!” The answer came… “I am Cosmic Energy”. My tongue began moving of its own accord, mouthing the phrase, “My energy is Cosmic Energy, and… “My mind is the Cosmic Mind”. At this moment, with profoundness that I cannot describe, I heard the sound of the universe breathing. It was the sound of my own breathing. The universe and I are not separate, but One! I am the stars, the moon, and the sun! When I see other people, I see myself. Wen i feel others, I am feeling myself. I became conscious that we are all sharing the same cosmic awareness. This was peace in the ultimate sense of the word, realizing that we are one with all existence.

I soon realized that this illumination of “enlightenment”, for lack of a better word, carries a heavy responsibility to share this experience with others. If enlightenment benefits just one individual, what good is that enlightenment? If Truth revealed to one individual ends there, what good is that Truth? If the power of enlightenment does not change the world, it is without value, not even worth theprice of a loaf of bread. I therefore, decided to test the Truth of my enlightenment by attempting to share it with the world. If my enlightenment was real, I could communicate it to others and it would affect them the way it affected me. Thus, I had found a way to express my true purpose for this life…to hel others to experience the spiritual awakening of inner peace. For enlightenment if peace.

“Peaceology” by Ilchi Lee